He saw each note as it fell from his clarinet.
Smooth, stretched, with a smokey luster that made him
think of black pearls against a womans translucent
white skin. If I Had You, it was called, an old tune
with a slow, sweet melodic line. Had he ever played
this one for her?
In the beginning shed stood in the
street as he played, watching him, swaying a little
with the music. Hed distrusted her power clothes
and her Pre-Raphaelite face. But shed intrigued
him as well. As the months went by, he never knew when
she would appear. There seemed no pattern to it, yet
whenever he moved, she found him.
It had been a day like this, the first
time hed seen her, a hot summer day with the smell
of rain on the threshold of perception. As evening fell,
the shadows cooled the hot, still air and the crowds
poured out onto the pavements like prisoners released.
Restless, jostling, they were flushed with drink and
summers licence, and hed played a jazzy
little riff on Summertime to suit their mood.
She stood apart, at the back of the crowd,
watching him, and at last she turned away without tossing
him even a cursory coin. She never paid him, in all
the times after that; and she never spoke. It had been
he, one night when she had come alone, who called her
back as she turned away.
Later she sat naked in his rumpled bed,
watching him play, and he had seen the notes disappear
into the shimmering web of her hair. When hed
accused her of slumming, shed laughed, a long
glorious peal, and told him not to be absurd.
He had believed her, then. He hadnt
known that the truth of it was beyond his imagining.
"I wont go." Lewis Finch
leaned back in his chair and obstinately planted his
booted feet on the worn rail beneath the kitchen table.
His mother stood at the cooker with her
back to him, putting cabbage and potatoes on to boil
for his dads dinner.
"Youll need someone to look
after you, if Das called up," he ventured.
"And if Tommy and Edward join--" He realized
his mistake even as she whirled round to face him, spoon
still in her hand.
"Shame on you, Lewis Finch, for trying
me so. Do you not think I have grief enough with your
brothers silly talk of uniforms and fighting?
Youll do as youre told--" She broke
off, her thin face creased with concern. "Oh, Lewis.
I dont want you to go to the country, but the
government says you must--"
"But Cath--"
"Cath is fifteen next month, and
has a job in the factory. Youre still a child,
Lewis, and I wont rest unless youre safe."
She came to him and pushed his thick fair hair from
his forehead as she looked into his eyes. "Besides,
its all just talk now, and I dont for one
minute believe were really going to have a war.
Now, go on with you, or youll be late for school.
And get your dirty boots off my table," she added
with a telling glance at his feet.
"I am not a child," Lewis grumbled
aloud when hed banged his way out the front door,
and for a moment he was tempted to give school a miss
altogether. It didnt seem right to sit in a stuffy
classroom on the first day of September.
He looked up Stebondale Street, thinking
longingly of the newts and tadpoles waiting in the clay
ditch behind the fence, but he hadnt anything
to collect them in. And besides, if he was late Miss
Jenkins would smack his hands with her ruler in front
of the class, and his mum had threatened to send him
to St. Edmunds if he got into trouble again. With
a sigh, he stuck his hands in his pockets and trudged
off to school.
The morning wore away, and through the
open window of his class in Cubitt Town School, Lewis
could see the dark bulk of the warehouses lining the
river front. Beyond the warehouses lay the great ships
with their exotic cargoes--sugar from the West Indies,
bananas from Cuba, Australian wool, tea from Ceylon
. . . Miss Jenkinss geography lecture faded .
. . . What did she know about the world, Lewis thought
as she droned on about taxes and levies and Acts? Now,
the Penang, she could tell you about far-off places,
she could tell you about things that really mattered.
One of the few masted ships that still came up the Thames,
she lay in Britannia Dry Dock for refitting, and just
the smell of her made Lewis shiver. After school hed--
The creak of the classroom door brought
Lewis back with a blink. Mr. Bales, the headmaster,
stood just inside the door, and the expression on his
long, narrow face was so odd that Lewis felt his heart
jerk. From the corridor rose a dull roar of sound, the
chattering of children in other rooms.
"Miss Jenkins. Children," began
Mr. Bales, then cleared his throat. "You must all
be very brave. Weve just had an announcement on
the wireless. War is imminent. The government has given
orders to evacuate. You are all to go home and report
back here with your bundles in one hour." He turned
away, but with his hand on the door turned back to them
and shook his finger. "You must have your name
tags and gas masks, dont forget. And no more than
an hour."
The door closed after him. For a moment
the room held its breath, then a shout came from Ned
Norris in the back row. "A holiday! Weve
got a holiday."
The class took up the chanting as they
surged out to meet the other children in the hall. Lewis
joined in, pushing through the front doors and leaping
from the steps with a Red Indian whoop, but his heart
wasnt in it.
The children scattered, but as Lewis turned
up Seyssel Street his feet slowed. He was suddenly aware
of the sounds of the island--the constant clangs, creaks
and whistles from the docks, and from the river the
hoots of the tugs and the low thrumming of the ships
engines. How could there be a war, when nothing had
changed?
He thought of the Penang again, being
fitted out for her return journey to Australia. Hed
stow away, start a new life in the Outback, not be parceled
off to some strange family in the country like a piece
of stray baggage. Almost eleven was old enough for a
job, he was big for his age, and strong--surely someone
would have him.
Turning into the top of Stebondale Street,
he saw his fathers old bicycle propped neatly
against the front door of their house. His mothers
lace curtains, fragile from so many washings, fluttered
in the open front window.
He knew then that he couldnt run
away, because he couldnt bear the thought of his
mothers tears or his dads gentle disappointment.
Lewis kicked hard at the bike and it toppled
with a satisfying crash. He left it lying in a heap
as he went through to the kitchen, and when he saw his
parents faces he knew that the news had come before
him.
George Brent swung his arms as much as
the dogs lead allowed and picked up his pace a
bit. He needed the exercise as much as Sheba these days,
for their morning walk eased the undeniable stiffness
in his joints. Even in this heat he ached when he got
out of bed most mornings. He pushed away the fleeting
thought of coping with the cold and damp of winter.
No point whinging about something that couldnt
be helped, and in the meantime it was a gloriously hot,
summer day. Winter was months away, and his worst worry
was the possibility of sunburn on his bald head.
Sheba trotted ahead of him, head low in
search of scent, her small black body quivering with
energy. As they passed the Indian restaurant on Manchester
Road, she raised her nose in a long sniff. The spicy
smells emanating from its kitchen were as familiar to
George now as the odor of cabbage and sausage had been
in his childhood, but hed never quite made up
his mind to try the stuff--though he conceded that the
urgings of Mrs. Singh might one day tip the scale.
He lifted his hand to Mrs. Jenkins in
the dry cleaners next door to the restaurant, then quickened
his pace yet again. He was late this morning, on account
of helping Mrs. Singh with her telly, and most likely
hed missed his mates who gathered for coffee at
the ASDA. But it was only fair, wasnt it, doing
a good turn for a neighbor? Especially as good a neighbor
as Mrs. Singh.
Smiling at the thought of what his daughters
would say if they knew what he got up to with the widow
next door, he turned the corner into Glenarnock. They
thought he was past it, but he still had a bit of lead
in his pencil. And it was hard to expect a man to go
without after so many years of having it regular. He
meant no disrespect to their mums memory, after
all.
As they came into Stebondale Street, Sheba
tugged against the lead, sensing the nearness of the
park, but George slowed as they reached the terraced
houses across from the entrance to the Rope Walk. They
made him think of the program on the Blitz hed
heard on the radio the evening before. Sitting snug
in his kitchen with his evening cup of tea as he listened,
it had brought the memories flooding unexpectedly back--the
sound the planes made as they came in for a bombing
run, the sirens, the devastation afterwards.
Coming to a halt, he told Sheba to sit
as he stared at the houses. He took them for granted
now, passed them every day without a thought, but this
one short block of half-a-dozen houses was all that
had survived of Stebondale as hed known it before
the war. The rest had been destroyed, like so much of
the Island, like the house he had grown up in.
Hed been too old to be sent to the
country, so hed seen the worst of the bombing
in the autumn and winter of 1940. The corners of his
mouth turned up as he remembered the relief hed
felt when hed presented himself at the recruiting
office on his seventeenth birthday. Hed been certain
that the real war would be better than just waiting
for the bombs to fall.
A few months later those nights in the
back gardens Anderson shelter had seemed an impossibly
safe haven. But he had come back, that was the important
thing, and his time in Italy had taught him to let the
future fend for itself.
Shebas yip of impatience ended his
reverie. He moved on obligingly and soon she had her
anticipated freedom, running full tilt off the lead.
George followed after her at his own pace, along the
Rope Walk between the Mudchute and Millwall Park, then
huffed a bit as they climbed to the Mudchute plateau.
There Sheba disappeared from view as she followed the
rabbit trails though the thick grass, but he stayed
to the narrow path that followed the boundaries of the
park. The dog always seemed to know where he was even
when she couldnt see him, and she wouldnt
stray far.
When he reached the gate that led down
to the ASDA supermarket, he glanced at his watch. Half-past
nine--his mates would most likely be gone. The sun had
moved higher in the sky and he was sweating freely--the
thought of a cuppa, even on his own, was tempting. But
the longer he tarried, the hotter it would be going
home.
Mopping his head with his handkerchief,
he walked on. Here the brambles encroached on the path,
catching at his trouser legs, and he stopped for a moment
to unhook a particularly tenacious thorn from his trainer
laces. As he knelt he heard Sheba whimper.
He frowned as he finished retying his
shoelace. It seemed an odd sound for Sheba to make here,
where her normal repertoire consisted of excited barks
and yips--could she be hurt? Unease gripped him as he
stood quickly and looked ahead. The sound had come from
further down the path, he was sure of that.
"Sheba!" he called, and he heard
the quaver of alarm in his voice.
This time the whimper was more clear,
ahead and to the right. George hurried on, his heart
pounding, and rounded a gentle curve.
The woman lay on her back in the tall
grass to the right of the path. Her eyes were closed,
and the spread of her long red-gold hair mingled with
the white-flowering bindweed. Sheba, crouching beside
her, looked up at George expectantly.
She was beautiful. For an instant he thought
she was sleeping, even hesitantly said, "Miss .
. ."
Then a fly lit on the still white hand
resting on the breast of her jacket, and he knew.